Why Do You Feel Fat After Losing Weight?
By Sandra Blakeslee and
Matthew Blakeslee
Authors of The Body Has a Mind of its Own
Why do you still feel fat
after losing weight? Why is yo-yo dieting so prevalent? Are
anorexics really being honest in their heart of hearts when they
gaze in a mirror at their scrawny, starving bodies and insist they
are grossly fat?
You've heard all the standard-issue answers to
these questions. You still feel fat because your body's natural
set point is out of whack. You yo-yo diet because you simply fell
off the celery wagon into a tub of deep fry. Anorexics had absurdly
narrow beauty standards flash-burned into their psyches by a
relentlessly youth-centric pop culture abetted by shallow, distant
parents – that, or they're just plain
drama queens.
But a very different set of answers can now be
glimpsed in new findings about how your brain maps your body, the
space around your body, and your social world. The science of "body
maps" reveals how mind and body interact to create your sense of
being a whole, autonomous, embodied individual. It also shows how
easily that sense can be discombobulated, and how you can bring it
back into balance when it falls out of sync.
To grasp the concept of a body map, ask yourself,
how do you know your hand belongs to you? How do you know where your
body begins and ends? You might answer, "Well, I just know. Because
it's mine. I can feel things through it and command it to move how I
want."
But this deep-seated sense of control and
ownership doesn't just pop into your mind by magic. It arises from a
symphony of coordinated activity between various maps of your body
– literal maps, not unlike road maps
– that are etched into the thinly layered
surface of your brain.
For example, your brain has a fundamental touch
map, with swaths of tissue dedicated to mapping touch sensations
from each finger, hand, cheek, leg, arm, foot and toe, as well as
your tongue, teeth, throat, genitals, and every other body part you
can name. When someone claps you on the shoulder, you know it was
your shoulder and not your neck or your arm because the cells that
make up your shoulder map become active while the cells in your neck
and arms maps stay quiet.
Right next to your touch map is a second
fundamental map which handles not sensation but motor activity (a
fancy term for movement). You can choose which finger to wiggle
because each finger is represented separately in your motor map. The
cells in the chosen finger map fire, sending commands down to your
muscles to make the intended movement happen.
Beyond these two basic maps you have many others
that map your muscles, joints, bones and viscera, as well as your
immediate action plans, your goals and intentions, and your body's
vast library of so-called "muscle memories." Your brain also maps
the space around your body. Wave your arm up over your head, out to
your side and down to your leg. Each point of that space is mapped
inside your brain in relation to your body.
In other words, your brain contains a sprawling
network of body maps that are always interacting
– the vast majority of it occurring outside of consciousness
– to give you that deceptively
self-evident sense that, yes, your hands, feet, mouth and every
other part of your body, inside and out, belongs to you, is
accurately understood and perceived by you, and is at your free
will's beck and call.
This view of yourself isn't entirely unfounded,
but it glosses over what is happening under the hood -- details that
can have big consequences for leading you down the garden path into
denial, delusion or unwarranted self-scorn.
To grasp why you may still feel fat after losing
weight, you need to consider two particular body maps that can
strongly conflict, giving you the sense that you are doomed to be
fat. One maps the internal felt position of your body. The other is
a distributed map concerning your beliefs about your body.
The first map, called the body schema, is based on
signals from your muscles, bones, tendons, skin, and joints that
tell your brain where you are located in space and how your body is
configured. This map is dynamic, meaning it changes from moment to
moment as you move around in the world. It also contains memories of
how your muscles engage to produce different actions and postures.
And it incorporates your ability to balance your body against the
force of gravity.
When you lose a significant amount of weight, your
body schema will update itself accordingly. The unconscious signals
coming up from your body into your brain reflect a thinner, lighter,
more flexible self. Your clothes (which are also incorporated into
your body schema – but that's another
story) fit differently. Your belt is a notch or two smaller. Your
old jeans are loose.
And yet, like millions of others before you who
have successfully toned up and slimmed down, you may still feel fat.
The signals from your thinner body schema are not percolating all
the way up into consciousness. Sure, you notice you look somehow
thinner in the mirror, a little bit, maybe, but that is not how you
feel. You feel fat, and you continue to see all your former
pudginess because another body-mapping system is trumping your
schema. It is called the body image, and it is composed of a more
widely distributed collection of mental images, memories, beliefs
and opinions about your body.
Your body image stems primarily from experiences
in childhood and adolescence. Like political and religious beliefs,
your beliefs about your body – I am fat
and unattractive; my body is disgusting and frightening; and so on
– are built up from what you see around
you, what people who are close to you say, and how people in your
society behave. For example, a young girl who is teased mercilessly
about being flat chested may never think of her body as being
normal. A little boy who is teased for having pop-out ears may
never, despite later changes in proportions to his face, stop seeing
a freak staring back at him through the looking glass.
Thus your body image, held in memory and language
circuits throughout your brain, can easily overwhelm your
slimmed-down body schema. You get discouraged and regain the weight
you can't stop believing in anyway. Your yo-yo dieting begins
another new cycle.
Fortunately, there are ways to redress this
schema-image disconnect. For example, wobble boards used by personal
trainers bring your body schema into sharp relief, forcing you to
attend to the signals you may normally tune out because they
frighten or discomfit you. Another route is to go see a somatic
psychologist, a therapist who guides patients to stay bodily
self-aware and viscerally attuned as they talk about their troubles.
And anorexics? Recent research shows that people
with this deadly condition may abnormally map their bodies and the
space around their bodies, especially with regard to vision and
touch. This is why anorexics literally see themselves as fat when
looking in a mirror. Give an anorexic a pair of calipers and ask her
to open it to equal the thickness of her arm, and she will open it
to the width of Popeye's biceps. And she is not making it up. Her
brain maps have become miswired. With this new brain-based
understanding of anorexic sensory misperception, new therapies are
being tested to reconnect abnormal body maps. If they end up
working, lives will be saved.
copyright 2007 Sandra Blakeslee, Matthew Blakeslee
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